and then there was……
My blog for today was for something completely different. It was funny and quirky and ridiculous as much as I can be. But then things wondered into my mind so I’ll save the funny for another time (you’ll have to watch for it, cause it doesn’t happen all that often, and jumps on you like a cat while you are sleeping!)
I spent the working, talking, and with friends: just a great day. In fact, I didn’t even realize the date till I was walking home.
Today, some years ago I meet the only guy I have ever really loved! I talk alot about guys but mostly about the mistakes I make while with them and more so the mistakes I make while looking for them.
But no matter what there always will be Josh. The only boy I ever REALLY loved.
I use pet-names/fake names for almost everyone on here. In fact, most of you don’t even know my real name (that isn’t a challenge)
Yet, then there is Josh. He stands alone. He can never be characterized, and never be ‘named’. I can’t put him in that box. And I guess if I am frank about it I would say it doesn’t matter if I use his name. He is no longer with us and thus not reading this ever.
Although in true SIDEBAR fashion this is where I would say he is looking down now (and many many times over the years) and is shaking his head….but probably laughing at the same time! (let’s be honest I’m pretty easy to laugh at)
He is the reason I am guarded when it comes to men. The reason I know what I want, and keep on ridiculous searching for it. But most importantly the reason I am just plain ridiculous!
GOAL: I got to stop being so serious. All my fun loving readers in Denmark (who are catching up quick on my Dutch readers) will stop checking me out.
